think a bink wink

i wrote something just now. but i accidentally closed the window.

*fumes*

3 more days to NYE, bidding for modules starts tomorrow, and the school semester would be starting soon.

2005 was a rather tumultuous one for me. i shifted out of my home of 20 years, celebrated my 21st birthday, had my first big argument with my family, got thru my first breakup and out of my first serious relationship with my first boyfriend and hence first heartbreak, had a really messed up semester, and am currently shitscared of the future because graduation is right around the corner.

i was also very lost, at a pt of time, about who i am and what i am and who and what i WANT to be, and what i want for myself.

funnily enough, i cant really remember much about 2005, i just feel like as tho i was stuck in some kinda suspended animation.

and now, more than ever, i have this feeling of being directionless. i hope 2006 is alot better for everybody, and i hope i find wat i'm lookin for real soon too.

in life, one must have hope. if not what's the pt?

night world.